scared

This post is mainly for me. to vent. to remember. this may be a long post.

Last weekend we went down to SLC to see my sister. My mom and i left on Thursday night, my dad was going to come later, and mike was in St. George for the "guy trip".  We had lots of fun shopping and even convinced my sister to do a craft! :) We went to this store called the Wood Connection...it's awesome. if you're into crafting. Friday afternoon, mike text me to tell me they were already on their way home (they weren't supposed to come home until late sat or sun morning). With a lot of begging, i convinced him to have his brother-in-law drop him off at Angie's house to stay with us for the rest of the weekend. yay!

 It was so much nicer in Utah! We went and played at the park.

 Triptyn loves the iPad. every time he sees it - "fishy, fishy" only it sounds more like "sissy" :)

On Sunday, we just hung around the house, Trip had a little bit of a fever, i figured it was just from teething. So we gave him some Tylenol and he basically laid around and wouldn't eat anything all day. he even turned down his favorite cookies. (those frosted circus animal ones) As soon as we got in the car to go home, he was out. so tired. He slept off and on. It was dark by the time we were just south of Pocatello. I was reading on my iPad, when mike told me to check on Triptyn, he thought something was wrong. He had looked in the rear view mirror and Triptyn's arm were moving even though we knew he was asleep. I flipped on the lights and there was my baby.......his eyes were rolled in the back of his head and he was shaking. 

wow, even now, as i'm remembering what i saw.....i'm crying.

So i immediately take him out of his car seat and mike pulls over. i tell him no, keep going we have got to take him somewhere. at this point, i don't know how long this has been going on or if it will stop. i tell mike to call 911 and ask them where the hospital is in Pocatello because i have no idea. I'm not really sure how much time passed, it seemed like forever. Triptyn came out of the seizure just after we pulled off the exit. He starts throwing up all over me, which i'm kind of happy about, because it means he's not dead. seriously, i was freaking out. i think his life flashed before my eyes. 

So we get to the ER. i can barely check him in, i'm crying, he's crying and throwing up. i can't tell you how glad i am that mike was there to be the calm one. (remember, originally he wasn't supposed to be with me. i think things happen for a reason. i can't imagine if i'd been by myself.) They take us back to triage....his temp is 103.3, he is completely limp and has no color. The nurse takes us right back to a room in the ER, the doctor comes in and asks all sorts of questions. What happened, how long ago, has he had a seizure before, is he sick, did he have a fever? After answering all his questions, he tells me Triptyn had a febrile seizure (his fever spiked really fast and caused the seizure) and it's really no big deal. One kid in twenty has one and it's only a concern if he has another one. they won't run any tests. just keep him here until his fever starts to come down. At this point, i'm thinking "ok, i'm a freak for bringing my baby to the ER when he just had a seizure because it's no big deal." also, i want to punch this doctor in the face. 

Triptyn is still crying and they say it's normal for them to be agitated for about 30 min. after having a seizure. well, we are at the ER for almost 3 hours and he's upset the whole time. when the doctor comes to check on him, he tells us he thinks Triptyn is crying "because he can." again, i want to punch him in the face. Triptyn is a good kid and doesn't cry just to cry.

Finally, Triptyn is calming down a little. but he's also basically asleep and we're not sure it's okay if he falls asleep. i mean, the last time he was asleep, he had a seizure! but what do you know? we can't find our doctor or nurse to make sure it's okay if we can't keep him awake. At last, our nurse comes in to check his temperature - 102.8, and tells us he can sleep all he wants. About 20 minutes later, he's back to tell us we can go. they don't any tests, don't even check to see why he has a fever. nothing.  Here's my poor little guy a few minutes before we left.

So we continue driving to Idaho Falls - with the light on - neither of us can really take our eyes off Triptyn, we're too afraid something bad will happen if we're not watching. Even though, they told us he was okay, he's still burning up, has had nothing to eat all day, his whole body is still pretty limp, and he's white as a ghost. And yet, this is completely normal according to our wonderful ER doc. Before we go home, we stop at my parent's house so mike and my dad can give Triptyn a blessing. this makes me feel a little better.

That night, we didn't sleep much. My amazing husband said he would stay up for a little while and watch Triptyn (even though he's asleep) and then i would get up in a while and take over watching him. Well when mike came in about 2:30 am, i was so tired and worn out, i told him just to bring Trip in bed with us. :)

Monday night his fever was still 101. so again, he slept with us. i was paranoid he would have a seizure while he was sleeping. another night of crappy sleeping.

His temp is down to 99.4 on Tuesday morning but he's still super tired and has no energy. i had to work, so i got up and got him dressed and he fell back asleep on my bed.

For memories sake, i had to take a picture of  the hospital band on his leg. his first trip to the ER.

By Wednesday, his fever is gone and he's not quite as tired.....but now he has a rash all over his stomach. At first, i'm a little worried but decide to wait and see if it goes away. it does. thank goodness.

So now my little guy is back to his normal happy self! Yay! Since Sunday, i've been reading all about seizures, and talking to a co-worker whose son had a couple. apparently where he's had one febrile seizure - he's at an increased risk of having more when he has a fever. lovely. now i can be paranoid every time he feels a little warm.

This was by far the SCARIEST thing that has ever happened to me, but i'm so glad Triptyn is okay. and i'm glad it happened when it did and that mike was with me. but hopefully it won't happen again. :)